I wrote you a letter

I wrote you a letter
but I tucked it away
I suppose I am saving it
for a rainier day.

I wrote you a letter
not just in my head
but my heart does want answers
to the thoughts in its head

But I stored your letter
this one that I wrote
but one day I will send it
one day, I hope

and I hope you'll reply
I hope you'll respond
I hope you'll send back
so I'll finally tread on.

I will tread,
I will flee,
I will leave in the night.
If your true with answers I can end this fight

But until I grow strong
Until I let go
your letter's in my pocket
and I still dont know.

Denial

Blind-fold my eyes
Plug up my ears
Keep your mouth locked
so I won't have to hear

The truth is what hurts
Your honesty lies
Spare me your story
and let me deny.

I will sit on your carpet
Sulk in your smell
Continue pretending you have nothing to tell.

Don't uncover my eyes
I like what I see
I'm to scared to acknowledge that I'm not what you need

Let me keep my ears clogged
Let me bow down my head
Let me turn my back
and ignore this instead.

My drawers will stay full
My bags unpacked
My body will lie next to yours
and we will still be in tact

I will want what I want
Believe what I choose
Read in to only the things I opt to

My rediculous behavior will discomfort those around
but I refuse to accept
That you were something to impound.

So I will look away
Hide under the covers
Stay asleep in your bed
til' this nightmare is over


Because I love what I love
So I do what I do
squeezing my eyes tightly
Avoiding what's true.